The Wrong Name

So, I have five goals for the year. Three fiction-related, one poetry-related, and the final one is all about reading.

Reading takes care of itself. I’ve always been good at mining out slots to read during the day and the Kindle is a major advantage to getting through more books. I remember when I got my first Kindle my reading increased dramatically, and able to synchronise what I’m reading across my iPhone and iPad has only served to increase the amount of opportunities to squeeze in as much reading as possible.

As for poetry, you may remember I take care of all of this under the pseudonym, Chas Stramash, but that doesn’t mean I have extra time in the day to write or publish poetry. As things stand, I have a half-written chapbook that was scribbled roughly into a notebook while on location in Sri Lanka last year. It’s a book that’s written itself more or less, and setting aside dedicated days to work on it – using poetry writing as a break from fiction – will ensure I get this goal completed easily and enjoyably enough.

But it’s within the fiction realm that I’m demanding most from myself over the course of the next year. I’m planning to complete three outstanding projects, two of which are more outstanding than the third!

So which one first?

I began work aimed at completing GATECRASH during the summer last year, and because it’s still fresh in my mind, and because I know where it’s going and where I want it to go, I’m going to continue with it first. It makes most sense.

It’s also the first book I’ve worked on using Scrivener, so importing it all back into a single document would not only be difficult, it would also mess up my research and planning that I’ve set up within the tool. I’ll be leaving all that as it is. Given that Scrivener isn’t available for the iPad yet, I can’t work on it in the mornings, which means I can fill that particular time a lot with other work… a new chapbook, for example.

There is one important thing that needs changed in this particular book, however, and I think it’s the reason the book has faltered on so many occasions. I am now, in the light of reflection, positive it is why I have been unable to finish it to any form of satisfactory level.

Most of the main characters have the wrong names. Only the lead female and one of the male characters have the correct name.

Changing the names of multiple characters is not something I’ve ever contemplated doing before. I’ve always felt that when a character is named – given birth to in my mind – he or she stays with that name for eternity. The same goes with how they look and behave (in my mind). But thinking about this with an open and clear mind, removing all prejudices and blaming mechanisms, I’m sure the wrong names are what is proving to be the fly in the ointment of this particular novel. They just aren’t sitting well despite being good characters. They have flaws and bags of personality, loud voices, the will of life and they hold the story up in a strong way. But there’s just something not right about them; they have the wrong names.

I’m terribly Sorry Matthew, but you’re just not a Matt!

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Goals for 2016

I’ve spent the last few days developing a new set of GDRs (Goals, Dreams and Resolutions), my first for around four years. I’ve spent enough time looking back at the last few years, analysing what came along in my life that meant I had to stop writing, and forgiving myself for dropping the ball. Looking back, I was in a great position and at times I feel like I’ve lost all the momentum I built up.

Those four years have remained in the back of my mind as I shape what will prove to be a critical year for me and my life in writing; pivotal even, as I attempt a “comeback” of sorts. To this end, I’ve been employing several methods for enabling myself to get back on the horse and motivating myself to the point of frustration:

  • I’ve re-read all of my old work: short stories, poems, and previous longer works of fiction (STELLA, BACCARA BURNING, SLICK, GREENER IS THE GRASS).
  • I’ve been contemplating the projects that remain unfinished from four years ago that I want to use to springboard back into things again.
  • I’m spending time with the characters involved in each of the unfinished projects to see who has the loudest voice, i.e., who is willing to help me out more.
  • I’m re-reading some of the works of my oldest friends in writing, and some of their work published since I moved into exile, for want of a better phrase.
  • I’ve been plugging back into some of my favourite blogs from writers who inspire me most.

And so for the first time in four years, I now have a fully developed set of GDRs for 2016; demanding, but not overly so; unapologetically challenging while keeping within the boundaries of optimal motivation. I like their familiarity and I like their freshness.

My life now, compared to where I was in 2012, has transformed completely. A lot of it is due to me coming to terms with who I am, some of it is down to pure chance and a splash of fate, but most of it is due to me deciding to take my life in the direction I wanted it to go; I have made my life into what I want. I’ll not be apologising for that any time soon, because for the first time in a long, long time, I’m really happy.

One of the few key things that remains is to re-focus and re-channel my creative energies into writing again. And that’s what the GDRs and the five motivational methods I outlined above are all about.

I’m not going to list all of my personal writing review and GDRs here, for that you will need to head over to the site run by Devon Ellington: Goals, Dreams & Resolutions, but for the sake of initially making it public, here’s my 2016 Writing Goals:

  1. Complete and Publish GATECRASH
  2. Re-write and Publish HUNTING JACK as a novel
  3. Complete NaNoWriMo 2015 Novel
  4. Publish Two New Chapbooks
  5. Read 40 Novels

Bring it on!

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The CG Awards and Looking to 2016

So that was 2015. A year of ups and downs, but mainly ups. And on the writing front it was a year of, well, mixed fortunes really. But I’ll be kind to myself and say it was a step in the right direction.

Keeping line with previous years, here’s my wrap-up of 2015: The CG Awards.

MUSIC
Best Album Bought: Allas Sak, Dungen
Best Live Gig: Mogwai 20th Anniversary, Barrowland
Best Musical Discovery: Wolf Alice

FILM
Best Film (cinema): Star Wars: The Force Awakens
Best Film (TV/DVD):  Under the Skin
Best Documentary: The Ecstasy of Wilko Johnson

LITERATURE
Best Fiction Book Read: The Girl on the Train, Paula Hawkins
Best Crime Fiction Book Read: Gone Again, Doug Johnstone
Best Non-Fiction Book Read: The Politics Book, Paul Kelly
Best Poetry Book Read: Human Chain, Seamus Heaney
Best Author Discovery: Willy Vlautin (The Motel Life)

OTHER
Best Meal: Martin Wishart Restaurant, The Shore, Leith, Sat 2nd May 2015
Best Bevy: The Diners Xmas Day Out (Dumbarton FC, Glasgow, Twilight Sad)
Single Most Embarrassing Moment: Too numerous to mention
Saddest Moment: The Deaths of William McIlvanney and John ‘Brad’ Bradbury
Single Most Memorable Moment: Getting engaged to my soulmate on the stage inside the Dublin Castle pub, Camden Town

With regards to writing, my output has been dreadful over the past few years (see previous post ‘Confessions of a Justified Sinner’), but this past year has seen things stir and get to a point I have been generating new ideas and writing again. More to the point, I’ve been enjoying it.

Writing highlights would be:

1- New chapbook written while on visit to Sri Lanka.
2- Final draft work on previous unfinished novel.
3- Entry into NaNoWriMo and a new novel being born (although I failed the November writing contest due to a bout of Norovirus).

So what of 2016?

It’s a year I must complete two unfinished projects (two novels and one chapbook) and it’s a year that, most importantly of all, I develop a new system of writing that works for me. Routine is the one thing I can rely on, and into this I must build a method for writing and for continuing to write all the way through to publication. I’ve got the desire again and I’ve got the support, it’s a case of working out a suitable rhythm and plan and sticking to it.

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Three Days Until NaNoWriMo

With three days to go until the big kick off, I find myself in an unusual position with regards to writing a fresh novel: I’ve two belting ideas. 

One is the idea I hinted at in my last blog post involving the supporting character from my first novel, Slick. The other comes straight from my “ideas” folder built up over many years. It’s an idea I had back in 1998 but it still works, is still juicy, and it would only need adjusting to modern day times and a new location. 

So which one?

Well, the more I’ve thought about each of their merits, the more I’ve erred toward the logical choice: a mix of both. 

But regardless of which way I eventually go in this, one problem remains the same: time. 

In order to write 50,000 words in 30 days, one must hit a minimum of 1667 words each day. As a number it isn’t all that much, it’s the regularity of it that becomes the problem if you’re not geared up or used to it. 

The two previous times I’ve done NaNoWriMo, I’ve blown out of the stalls with around 4-5000 words on the first two or three days. It’s then died down to the minimum number each day, with the odd spurt of a couple of thousand usually at the weekends. This method also allows for a day or two off if needed (and they usually are in order to keep perspective).

Both those times though, I hadn’t planned on being out of the country twice! The upshot is, if I’m going to do this, I’ll need to do it over 20 days, not 30. A quick tap on the calculator will show a new daily total required of at least 2500 words, with no days off. 

My plan, therefore, is this: to aim for 2000 a day, but also attempt to write while on holiday. Sounds easy but it won’t be, although I do have the support of my OH on this. 

I recently bought a new iPad as well, which should help me write while travelling. I also bought a Bluetooth keyboard for it that sits inside the case to make things even more amenable.

And I’m going to do more advance plotting than normal, something I wouldn’t normally do for NaNoWriMo. Flying by ones’ wings makes the whole experience a lot more exciting. But I think it’s a necessity this time around if I’m going to achieve that 50k mark at all. 

Todays goal is thus: make a final decision on the theme/plot and pen an outline. 

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Confessions of a Justified Sinner

My name is Colin Galbraith. It’s been over two years since my last blog post.

Yes, over two years. 2 years. Apart from a pre-written poem, we’re talking about 29 months to be precise.

So. Here we are then.

I guess you’ll be wanting to ask some questions so I’ll get the main stuff out the way. In the last two and half years or so I have…(in no particular order)

  • turned 40
  • got divorced
  • got some new tattoos
  • moved into a dream flat by The Shore in Leith
  • took one of the best holidays I’ve ever had in Cyprus
  • learned that as a single man, I “still have it”
  • found myself
  • rid myself of dead weights and negative influences
  • learned a few songs on the guitar
  • attended 73 music gigs in the space of one year
  • Re-read that last one: that’s 1 & half gigs per week for a year!!
  • built up my freelance I.T. business
  • worked for 3 major British and worldwide banks
  • saw my daughter turn 18
  • saw my young sister turn 40
  • lost my cat, Jeremiah, who has now moved on
  • discovered I love going to the cinema on my own
  • became an uncle for the third time
  • been nicknamed “Peter Pan” by two of my nieces
  • met and fell in love with my soulmate
  • moved to Livingston
  • visited the Asian continent for the first time
  • become engaged
  • become a dad to two new mini-lop bunnies, Lulu and Crumble
  • and probably most importantly, I’ve grown happier and more sure each and every day

So there you go. I think that just about covers it.

And with all that out of the way, the only big question that remains now is ‘why start blogging again?’

Simple really. I miss writing and I’m finally getting my long lost muse back.

The encouragement I’ve also received from my fiancé over my writing and the fact I’ve started work on a new poetry chapbook, also helped to point me to the inescapable conclusion that I had not, in fact, written my last novel, or indeed story.

The timing of this regeneration and invigoration is probably the best it could be. NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) starts this Sunday, which I’m hoping can be the perfect launchpad for a new novel, and my spur to move on with all the plans I had before all this began.

For the uninitiated, NoNoWriMo is an online based writing marathon that anyone can sign up to, the aim of which is to write at least 50,000 words in 30 days. Not as easy as it sounds by any stretch, but it is how I wrote Slick (available on my website) and Gatecrash (unpublished), so I have done it before.

For the past few weeks I’ve been bouncing ideas around in my head, endlessly mulling things over, and toying with new characters. I’ve also been falling into odd little absences, which although might appear to an outsider like I’m not paying attention, are in fact just me plotting the outline of my next book.

And so with six days to go until NaNoWriMo begins, I have a strong protagonist and the formation of an antagonist. I have a location. I have a rough plot idea. And I have inspiration aplenty.

My protagonist is the most formed in my mind for this project but that’s mainly because I’ve spent time with him before. You might recognise his name: Lennox, D.I. Lennox.

Blogging is my attempt at not only journaling my path through this years NaNoWriMo, but also a requirement in that I really do need to grease the wheels.

To tell you the truth, despite the obstacles in my way, I really am quite excited about starting a new journey.

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R.I.P. Rev. I.P.

So
Ian Paisley, the Reverend
with a voice so loud
booming over land and cloud,
now you’ve left for good
for your beliefs you stood
after a lifetime it seems
you were already old when I was in my teens

I
never quite understood, how
a cloth-man could stand the politics
and the MP’s systematic dirty tricks,
I guess it was your stubbornness
that stopped you from ever saying “yes”
that for decades kept your throat so tender
after endless roars of “no surrender, no surrender!”

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A New Arrival

We have a new arrival in our family.

No, my wife wasn’t pregnant before the calls start coming in, and no I haven’t been out and brought more floppy-eared bunny rabbits back home.

We’ve got a cat.

He’s a two year old Siamese Red Point that needed a new home. He has light ginger striped fur and bright sea-blue eyes. Say hello to Jeremiah.

Jeremiah

I’m really rather excited about having an animal in the house. I loved the bunnies a lot and was sad to see them go, but they weren’t house rabbits – they had to be kept outdoors where there was more room and they were closer to nature. Rabbits are a danger to themselves inside.

This wee fella is extremely laid back, likes human company a LOT, and seems to blend in well to our lives. He’s already well-versed with living in a home so I don’t think it’s been too much of a shock to his system, although moving from a flat to a house has resulted in a couple of accidents as he gets used to the roomier surroundings. Stairs and a banister! What the heck are those things?

Finding him can be a bit of a problem as he gets into all the wee nooks on his travels. I’ve tracked him down under beds, in the back of cupboards, on top of cupboards, behind the couch, the fridge, my desk and my tropical fish tank. Wiley little chap!

And I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I really like the small of cat food. Am I alone in this? We give him packets of jellied meat and fish and it smells great whenever I put it down for him. I think it’s probably just me.

Anyway, back to the page, which has become increasingly harder because Jeremiah (or Jerry as I catch myself calling him sometimes – two syllabels are better than four) likes to sit on my lap and either watch what I’m writing, or follow the line of words appearing on the screen. But what can you do?

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